Tuesday, October 31, 2006

symantics...?

got this press release via email today...

anybody else take issue w/the last line of it or am i just a hair-splittin' idiot...?

PRESS RELEASE
10/31/2006

OPEN GRAVE RECORDS SIGNS EXCLUSIVE US DISTRIBUTION DEAL WITH OARFIN DISTRIBUTION

Open Grave Records is please to announce that they have inked an exclusive US distribution deal with OarFin Distribution. OarFin Distribution is a National Distributor that deals with national & independent music store chains as well as online retailers, as well as other distributors and key independent stores.

Owner of Open Grave Records, James Mattern is quoted saying, “Everyone at Open Grave Records is really pleased about this partnership with OarFin. With this deal in place we will be better able to get our products into the hands of the fans. This will also give every artist that is a part of Open Grave Records the opportunity to grow”.

The first releases that are being made available nationwide will:
Downlord – Random Dictionary of the Damned
Atrocity - Contaminated
Necrodemon – Ice Fields of Hyperion
End of Destiny – The Thoughtless Existence
The Everscathed – Razors of Unrest

These titled will hit stores on January 30th 2007.


NOTE TO CHRISTIAN PRESS: The only Christian artist this press release includes is End of Destiny. The other artists are secular artists.

your friendly xtian blogger,

lee

Thursday, October 19, 2006

what really hurts

you do it to yourself...you do...
& that's what really hurts...



thom had it right. still does. the best of us learn this early on & get about the business of change. the worst wallow to the end splattering the rest of us with their own filth.

this isn't really too problematic, because we're usually neck deep in our own. somewhere in the middle are those that are cognizant of all this & struggle to maintain consistency. all of us can be found somewhere along this proverbial continuum.

i long to be among the best of us. i'm not. i have all the potential to be the most compassionate jerk you've ever met. i fulfill this on quite a regular basis.

maybe it's just the natural tendency of the fallen heart to oscillate between the desire to serve or preserve. i manage to stroke both @ the same time. these tend to be my better days.

i want more than anything to influence, change, shape & mold...


my environment, my relationships, my world...

for the better...

perhaps this is too simplistic. i'm coming to realize that this is entirely possible & too small a task. the real goal looms much larger & posts rewards that are unparalleled in existence.

it is to allow the change to be made in me...

escape the perpetual cycle of self-destruction...

not bury the past, but redeem it by learning from it...

not acquiesce to circumstance, but remember perspective & transcend...

realize that my nature @ times is anything but natural & not justifiable by saying so...

desire more than anything to become like the 1 that made me & know that he's never disappointed in me because he knows the end from the beginning...

...pulling for me...longing for me...changing me by living in me...

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

more readily apparent

found these nifty pics from last friday's show...

cool eh...?



there is order emerging from all this...

the mirage of randomness seems to be beginning to lift as purpose becomes more readily apparent...

hallelujah to the 1...
in our bones...
hallelujah to the 1...
that we love...

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

life's a bitch that i love

i really can't complain...

my life is all together amazing & challenging beyond belief. the sky's the limit, but so are the depths of the deepest hell. it's all up to me, which is really unsettling @ times.

i do my best, mindful of the 1 greater that gives me purpose yet know that the culpability is mine to bare. some days this brings great satisfaction, while others it brings uncanny distress. luke-warmness never really appealed to me which i come by honestly i would hope, but leaves me in a constant state of tension.

times often find me fetal & just praying that the tendon doesn't snap, while others have me leaping from snow caps w/no worries about the unseen. i suppose that that's what this thing called existence is all about. faith...or the lack there of.

today is a faith day. brimstone could light my yard & i wouldn't be moved...save to warm the day's manna. funny how that is & continues to be for me...

so i drank another simile
& compared your jesus to a thief
he took my bones
& turned them to bread